My Testimony

I have a testimony of how I changed from feeling so lonely
It started with a want, that turned into a need
A feeling of purpose I had never perceived
It was like a flash of lightning that caught my attention quickly
An epiphany that could not be taken lightly
I saw God's love through a new pair of eyes,
And found God's truth in all of the worlds lies
I am important, worthy and capable of being loved
But, more than that I am saved through Jesus Christ, God's son
So, lonely I am no more since Jesus knocked at my hearts door. -The Woven Woman

This was the first poem I wrote after giving my life to Jesus. I remember the day I wrote it, I was so overwhelmed by Gods presence I don't even think I can take full credit for it. It was like he was writing it through me. This poem is very dear to my heart. It's my testimony. I was 18 when I surrendered my life to Jesus. I graduated High school with absolutely no plans for college, I had no ideas for the future. My entire high school career had been devoted to my friends and having fun. We were always on the move, always laughing, always there for each other and always getting into trouble. I don't remember how and when things changed but slowly I began to distance myself, I was 17 years old. My routine was wake up, go to school, go to work, and sleep. Anytime between was spent alone. I had fallen into a deep depression. I even distanced myself from my family. (My family-Mom, sisters, aunts, uncles and cousins-are my everything!!!) I felt totally alone. I was so confused, always trying to figure my life out…my purpose. I remember being so frustrated, what am I doing here! I had no joy, and no motivation. I was lost. For an entire year, that was my life. I felt hopeless. The sad part about it was I didn't let anyone know. I kept what I was going through to myself and hid my depression. My life was agony, constant worry and stress. The devil really beat me up at that time in my life. Always whispering doubt and despair into my ear. You're not worthy, you're nothing, no one loves you, you're a joke, you're not smart…those are just few things, Satan tormented me with. Praise God I have a mother who raised me in church and taught me right from wrong and prayed through for me. The lies of Satan were oppressing me, but he wasn't winning. All those things he was speaking to me could've resulted in me harming myself or suicide, but I thank God for my praying Mother because I know she played a part in my Victory over Satan. Then it happened! I finally had enough. I was at the end of my rope. I was broken and beat up and in need of a savior. All the things I heard and learned in church growing up finally became reality to me. I realized I couldn't do it myself. I needed God. I knelt beside my bed at 11:00 at night, crying and pouring my heart out and I said God, I need you! Please God, take this from me. All this pain and anger. Forgive me Lord. I know I can't make it in this life without you. I need you, I love you! And in that moment, my heart changed. I call it my light bulb moment, because all of the sudden my eyes were opened and I could see things clear. My life made sense for the first time. I wasn't stumbling around in the darkness. God had shone His light on me and completed me. He put my broken pieces back together. He restored my joy, peace, love, hope, and faith! I was a new creation! I praise God that I have been able to serve Him going on 10 years now. Yes, the road has been rough along the way but, I am persevering. No longer lonely because Jesus is my friend, my chain breaker, my way maker, and my savior!

Prayer: Lord, I just want to thank you again for what you did at Calvary. Lord thank you for my eternal gift of salvation. Thank you for always being there for me, and helping me in my time of need. I praise you for your saving grace. Lord, I pray this post touches the hearts of many and that you will be glorified! I love and bless your name! Amen.

The Woven Woman

13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mothers womb. 

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was Woven together in the depths of the earth, 

16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.   

Psalm 139:13-16

I have LOVED writing my whole life.  I love writing songs, poetry, and I love writing letters. Mostly letters to God. Writing has always been a good outlet for me. Recently I started writing random devotional type entries that I tuck away in my Bible. I was thinking of a way that I could turn writing devotionals into a hobby and, well here I am! I don’t know the first thing about blogs or how to write one, but I’m going to try. I truly feel this blog journey I’m on is God inspired and my greatest desire in life is to obey and please Him. A couple of weeks ago I was at work flipping through scripture when I came across Psalms 139:13-16. Now, I have read this scripture many times and it’s always been a favorite, but this time when I read it the word Woven caught my attention. I thought about how he created me. How every detail of my being mattered to Him. I’m not talking about my physical body, I’m talking about my destiny. He saw a person who has the ability to pick and choose her path and still He wrote her story. He wrote my story before I even existed on the earth. Yes, there have been lots of times where I doubted God, where I chose my own path, where I gave in to my struggle. But God says, I’m still here. I still have a plan for you! Your story is still unfolding. The story you wrote for yourself may have reached “The End” but the story I have written in my book, the plan I have for you has just begun! I’m so thankful for a merciful loving Savior. I’m so thankful that when life gets me down, He picks me up. He never gives up on me. I’ve abandoned Him a lot but he has never abandoned me. I walk away and he takes me back every time. He sees my worth and my potential and he lets me know that I am somebody. My blog is called The Woven Woman because God created me with a purpose. I have been Woven together by God to do his will.

I pray in the mighty name of Jesus that this blog will reach someone and touch their heart. I pray that You will bless this blog and that You will use me through this experience. I pray that I will continue to grow and that You will teach me Your ways so that I may share You with the world. Amen.